i hope my mom prays against me and i hope i choke and i hope a car runs me over when im returning from school and i hope someone bashes my head with a rock and i hope someone rapes me and i hope i go blind deaf mute dead paralyzed terminal vegetative i hope i dont exist i hope everyone hates me i hope my mom abuses me i hope my friends leave me i hope god hates megod hates megod hates megod hates megod hates megod hates megod hates megod hates me i hope i lose my mind my health my body my autonomy my ""Talents"" my ""Skills"" i hope i get into a cult i hope they choke me torture me starve me isolate me i hope my future is bleak and hopeless i hope i lose everything